Living is a war. You fight to avoid losing your loved ones. For your dreams, for your future and even to protect your past. In this war, people forget their values, and there will be people who want to make you forget them too so that they can win. But I have made a decision, I will not change my color in this war, I will still be what I am. As a wasteful, reckless, selfish, and self-indulgent person, I will try to enjoy this war in the temporary time given to me. I probably won't be able to find peace without doing good, no matter how selfish I try to be, if the other party is dissatisfied while trying to get what I want, I will be unhappy too. But when it is their turn to be selfish, they will do their best to diminish me. When they upset me, I may be surprised and saddened again and again, as if I had never known this evil of human beings. My loves may change, I may not be able to keep my promises, I may curse and betray those who betray me, and the things I defend...
I write when I overthink. This happens so often.