A Freethinker

    Living is a war. You fight to avoid losing your loved ones. For your dreams, for your future and even to protect your past. In this war, people forget their values, and there will be people who want to make you forget them too so that they can win. But I have made a decision, I will not change my color in this war, I will still be what I am. As a wasteful, reckless, selfish, and self-indulgent person, I will try to enjoy this war in the temporary time given to me. I probably won't be able to find peace without doing good, no matter how selfish I try to be, if the other party is dissatisfied while trying to get what I want, I will be unhappy too. But when it is their turn to be selfish, they will do their best to diminish me. When they upset me, I may be surprised and saddened again and again, as if I had never known this evil of human beings. My loves may change, I may not be able to keep my promises, I may curse and betray those who betray me, and the things I defend...

    Not being able to take root makes a person angry. The answer to this question is quite simple. Being not understood also can make a person angry.  When  your all  vicissitudes with your agony are belittled by your  loved ones, humans can turn into an animal which has no control.  The people who enter our lives, especially at our turning points, should understand you if they  have an expectation  to be loved. Making extra explanations for the people who take root in your heart is a pointless effort for humans. And then, this struggle turns you into an impotent beast.  Even though talking is not  a  hard   exercise  for human action, explaining ourselves can consume our soul.  Just a glimpse should explain everything that burns you because it is not impossible for such a complex creature.  We are born to be loved,  to feel, to understand, and to  die.   Till  death, we should disco...

       I heard that  the sense of belonging was discussed  a lot during this period, so my mask  was gradually falling away . My fellows started to realize me since I could not find enough strength to hide my bleeding. My wounds were bleeding  clearly  every time. I was laughingly denying it while making people watch this wound that I couldn't stop bleeding. I'm the happiest. Could you please shut up? I'm asking, can't we talk about being a little bit of everywhere and being completely nowhere? My dear friends, won't we say both death  farewells  and moving farewells again? Now  I  don't hesitate to say goodbye. I'm sorry, pure and delicate souls, to whom I bid farewell whenever I thought of them. I'm not in me. I wanted to love, but I  was not made  to love. I didn't become evil, I was made evil. Time became my prisoner , highways  became my home. I said goodbye to everyone , I  didn't solve the p...

Youth's bloom, a rose in morning dew, What is the use of the beauty? In the rush for flawless skin and grace, Remember, it's but a transient phase. You may not notice it until years pass. What makes a gorgeous person stunning are the words of her lover. Beauty does not know the value, it trusts the mirror. The mirror deceives the beautiful, it is the employee of time. Health, too, is a fragile gift we hold, In the grasp of fate, its story is told. With each beat of the heart, a reminder clear, That nothing lasts, not far nor near. What is the use of the beauty?  If it does not belong to you, if it is a prisoner of time.

 How are we free in a literal sense? Is it possible to say that I am an independent person and I am free? I do not think so. Even feeling free is a refreshing feeling, How could we have freedom? If the responsibility for everything we do depends on us, we cannot be free from the consequences of the decisions we make. Since each action affects the next, the path we choose follows the footsteps of our previous decision. This means that we have limited ourselves at some point. How many of us can decide with a 100 percent understanding of our society's expectations? To listen to your inner voice, you first need to be alone with yourself. But you have a family in your brain that talks before you make a decision, there are promises you made to your childhood, and there are expectations of your loved ones. Have you ever gotten rid of these and focused only on what you want? In my opinion, it is not right to say that our brains are free without being free from the pressure of society and p...

       Only selfish people don't get sick. Do you know why? Selfish people don't experience stress, they don't question others' feelings, and they don't get into any trouble. Being a good person in this world means that unless you make mistakes, other people's problems are on your shoulders. A good person is afraid of breaking hearts. A good person is afraid of violating someone else's rights. A good person is afraid of not meeting expectations. A good person is afraid of getting bad grades. A good person is afraid of leaving a job he doesn't like. A good person is afraid of the other person being in a difficult situation. A good person is afraid of making mistakes because he has no one to stand behind him.       In other words, a good person always lives with stress and fear. Stress harms your health, anxiety harms your mental state. If your mentality is damaged, you cannot make the right choices. If you desire to be healthy, be selfish. If you w...